I Still Remember the Days Where I Prayed for the Things I Have Now

The other day my friend sent me a tik tok. There are different variations of it out there, but most importantly it’s a voiceover of Nene Leakes (if you don’t know who that is, it’s ok lol). The context is that Nene visits someone’s home and is disgusted by what she sees.

 Nene goes on to say “They had a white refrigerator. I was like ughhhh ooooo, not a white refrigerator. Girl please put your shoes on, let’s go find you a home”. Now, I find Nene to be hilarious so of course I laughed, but I also had a moment where I thought to myself… damn, I used to have a white refrigerator.

It was actually only in February of this year that I moved into a renovated unit in my apartment complex that came with wood floors, granite countertops, and yes…. A STAINLESS STEEL REFRIGERATOR. I distinctly remember living in my old apartment and just waiting for the day I could move into something like what I have now. 

I still remember the days I prayed for the things I have now

I began to reflect on where I am now in life versus where I was 1-3 years ago. I remembered first moving to the DFW and not being able to find a job for about 3 months. I remembered being so frustrated that I had a bachelor’s degree but apparently still wasn’t qualified enough. I remembered working at different jobs for $10, $13, $15 an hour. I remembered working for no pay at all (unpaid internships should be illegal). I remembered long days of working then heading to class at 7:00 PM. I remembered being worried about rent. I remembered getting a credit card just to pay for necessities. I remembered using that credit card for things I didn’t really need. I remembered looking at people on Youtube and Instagram who went on trips and had gorgeous apartments then thinking “Why can’t that be me?” or “When will my time come?”. 

I’m not trying to say that I struggled oh so hard nor am I trying to say that my life is perfect now. I am saying that I feel blessed that the things I mentioned above are no longer my reality. Those things mentioned above are important aspects of my journey in life that have played a part in making me into the woman I am today.

I don’t know where you are in life right now, but if you are wishing and praying to be some place different, I want to tell you that it’s coming. Keep working, keep striving, keep praying. When you do get to that place you wish to be, don’t forget where you once were. Use the past chapters of life as motivation and reminders. Keep working, keep striving, keep praying.

20/20 Vision

First off…. it’s been awhile, but for good reason. Here are some major things that happened for me in the year 2019…

  • I graduated from grad school
  • I spent 3 months post graduation studying for a licensing exam and passed it….like really passed it
  • I got my first “big girl job”as a therapist
  • I got a new car

I share these things for two reasons. One, I want y’all to know that I didn’t just forget about my blog, I’ve just been busy. Two, I want y’all to know that all of the things I mentioned above, I put on a vision board back in 2017. For two years I kept that vision board on my bedroom wall and slowly witnessed as most of what I put on there, became reality. So here we are in January of 2020, and I decided it was time to make a new one.

I’m really not an artsy or creative person, but give me a glue stick, posterboard, magazines, and scissors…. and IT’S ON. My method for creating a vision board is pretty simple. After I have gathered my materials, I take some time to really think about what I want for myself. I think about each aspect of my life and decide what it is that I really want to achieve or what changes I want to see. I then spend some time going through magazines, and cutting out pictures or words that can put together a visual representation. After I’ve cut and made a complete mess on the floor, I arrange and re-arrange the cut-outs on the posterboard until it looks cute. When I’m satisfied I glue eveything down and hang it on a wall. Boom, vision board.

I believe in vision boards simply because I believe in the law of attraction. Whatever you focus on and put energy into will manifest.

“Watch your thoughts, they become your words; watch your words, they become your actions; watch your actions, they become your habits; watch your habits, they become your character; watch your character, it becomes your destiny.”

― Lao Tzu

So here is my vision board and I’ll briefly explain a few things that I put on there and why..

“Consistency Queen” So I’ve decided that the theme for my 2020 is consistency. In the past I have had trouble with remaining consistent with things like; going to the gym, eating healthy, and even this blog. If I can remain consistent, 2020 will be very successful for me.

“Yes, New Friends” and spending more time with the friends I have now Despite my introverted tendecncies, I want to be more proactive in meeting up with and talking to my friends. I don’t have many friends (yikes) so I also want to be more open to meeting new people. Making new friends as an adult is kind of scary to me, but I think there’s also so much to gain from more amazing women in my life.

“Feel Sexy” In 2020 I want to serve looks. It’s that simple.

What do you want to achieve in 2020? What changes are you trying to make? Let me know!